ANDERSON COOPER

ANDERSON COOPER.

I absolutely love you.

The chances are you reading this are NIL. So here goes:

I read your memoirs. I picked it up at Carrefour for $6. I recognised your face from CNN. and then I read.

I remember this line from The History Boys where Hector talks about the experience of reading literature, and how the best moments are when one finds somebody writing about a feeling, an emotion or experience, where he once thought was peculiar and special to him.

That is the feeling I get when I read your book. I sympathise and I empathise. Don't get me wrong - I know only too well the fallacies of a person saying 'I understand what you went through'. I don't. Perhaps I never will. But I have experienced my fair share of pain in this short life of mine, and I dare say that it was absolutely freaky to read about somebody vocalising that which I have tried so hard to bury deep within me.

It has been a long time since I have achieved any sort of connection with anyone or anything. You have done it. bravo.

I want to believe that every single thing written in that book is true. I feel that it is. I want to put my cynicism aside and for once BELIEVE in something. I am a child of post-modernity and insecurity is only nature.

I believe in you. Pls keep doing whatever you are doing and keep believing in what you do because it does make a difference to people - and to the world - no matter how small or insignificant it may seem. Pls do. If I become a war correspondent one day, it will be because of you, and I want you to know that. Maybe if i follow in your footsteps, perhaps I may find want im looking for in this life. Perhaps then, I can finally escape.

If I was christian and religious, I would say that you would definitely be on my prayer every night and may God help you find the peace that you want and the happiness that you deserve.

I love you.